Pulled out my frigging piercing today, by bloody fuck it hurt like hell. Been trying to get it back in for the best part of four hours and am now giving up thanks to the big lump on the inside of my nostril making it damn near impossible.

sending one of the minions to argos tomorrow to pick me up a pack of three to tide me over untill I can get to the piercing place to have them fix it for me. Eugh and ouch respectively.

I'm on a diet the same diet I go on every year in January. So I've got my slimfast, got my ready meals, got weight watchers biscuits and chocolate bars (im allowing myself one chocolate thing or two biscuits a day with my tea break at work).I've been doing sit ups, done a few miserable pushups walking a bit more and I've lost 4lb since 1st January. Not bad considering im not doing anything over enthusiasticly. But with that in mind I've just priced up the play drome and they do a spin abs class which is on once a week, and a gym induction is only eight pounds so I'm going to go for it when this months wage comes in.

Right now I'm weighing in at 10st 10lb. I think I was 11.5st a couple of months back (but don't quote me on that). Anyhoo, I'm aiming for 9.5 / 9st as my goal, the physical goal is to get back into a size ten, and given I've got broad hips the love handles (RAR) aren't doing me any favours.

So yeah.
Loose weight, get to size ten.
Learn to drive

No reason I can't do either of theese things this year, none at all.

now it's time to sleep sleep sleep, got a busy day ahead and I'm all shagged out.
Heh.

I was talking to david on msn last night and he called my approach to what's been getting to me, pragmatic. that makes sense in a way, can't get to the solution using all you have to go on? fuck it. im just going to have to quash this feeling and get on with it.

Y'know that feeling you get, that someone did you wrong, someone cheated on you? you've got your hunches, gut feelings 'womans intuition' etc, that feeling. It's buggingme today been bugging me all day. Nobody's going to come forward and say they did anything, not after the time that's passed, because they'll think it's all dealt with itself, swept itself under the carpet. Not considering the other party involved might actually want to know the TRUTH so they can form their own opinion on what to do from that point onward. That feeling where your skin prickles telling you to listen and listen closely because it's screaming the answer and your brain is fogged.

see that, that right there.


I'll never know the truth.

Had my first ever bong tonight.


damn I need to sleep right now

Why am I actually on that forum? After reading all that, I don't think I like anycunt.

That is all :)

Just went to make a cuppa and found DF had died :(
RIP wee woodmouse, I hope I treated you well.

Things are sorted.
As far as I'm concerned the past two days of mentalness were some kind of blip in the matrix and never happened.
I'll not be brining it again 'cos it never happened.

I am bored and playing a game thing, come join me.
www.lost.eu/41085

I'm in one of thoose moods.

Kissing you by Des'ree



So, yeah......I'm sat here with chocolate for comfort and having a wee cry to myself.

It's just one of thoose moods I guess.
I wonder how many more years I'll go to bed alone.

Every square inch of me is yelping with pain, I deserve it though for not going to bed. Oh wells.......This (although I've seen it and saved it before) has made my day so far.

So yesterday I didn't start the diet. I'll wait untill the week is over with and start afresh on Monday, yesh.

The livingroom is spotless, HUZZAH! It was long overdue a tidy up and I'm determined to have the flat all spanky and fresh for my birthday. One room down, kitchen, hall, laundry room, bathroom and bedroom to go. Eeep.

Also, if I can keep the flat nice and tidy I'll feel better within myself. Having a positive attitude is a complete must have if I'm to go back on this diet and reach my goal by January. A month to go? I think I can make it, but drastic times call for drastic measures. So throw your diet tips here folks, I need to shift this last 12lb.

(3lb a week doesn't sound too bad really)

Toodles, kisseeehs!

I've decided not to go into the whole 'why I've been a bit crap' thing, not here on LJ. The reasons being 1) It's not actually worth slobbering on about, and 2) I can't be arsed talking about a complete non issue.

So YAY! I'm actually happy today. It looks as though I'll be paying visit to an old friend in Edinburgh, should be uber fun.

ALSO! Some director type chaps came to the shop yesterday, looking for 70's furniture for the christmas Chewin' The Fat special : D They said they'd be back again if they need anything else, it'd be braw if they do return.

"Orange says:
you were rather arousing as a skinny thing"

Which reminds me, the diet is back on as of tomorow. I wonder if I can reach my target weight for January.

Bye folks, Bye! Kisseehs!

ahahahahah oh fuck ahahahah